Lord Lord

During my bible reading I was challenged by the words of Christ

Luke 6:46
46 "Why do you call me 'Lord, Lord,' and not do what I tell you?RSV

Christ is asking again for me to take a good hard look at my self. I call out Lord Lord but do I do what he tells me to? am I following what God wants of me all the time? do I follow his instructions for life? it is so easy to say that I am a christion but do I really follow him?

Lose it all

The other day we watched "facing the giants" together and I was reminded again the truth about giving my all (maybe I should say convicted) the issue of giving my all for God is something I continually struggle with.

The old "chopping block"

Sunday morning I went to my sisters church and pastor Tanglin was preaching on

Romans 12:1 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.KJV

One of the things that I remember is what he said about it being hard to be a living sacrifice because once we get put on the alter and it starts getting we have a way trying to get off of it dead sacrifices just lay there but as living sacrifices when it starts to be to painful we are like I am outta here.

Until we realize the the truth that I can not truly live until I am dead! I will not have anything until I lose that which I hold so vary dear.

Mark 8:34-37
34 And when he had called the people unto him with his disciples also, he said unto them, Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
35 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel's, the same shall save it.
36 For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
37 Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

It says to take up your cross. the cross is not just a pretty trinket but one of the most cruel execution devices ever created. it could be said take up your noose or strap yourself to the electric chair. this reminds me of the time when we butcher chickens and i would take a chicken to the "chopping block" there was no way that the chicken was going to leave with its head. it is the same with me! Caleb cannot live through this but must die. I am beginning to realize that as I struggle to make my life and am getting nowhere i must instead lose it all for Christ, only then will i have a life to live.

Come along and lose it all

Simply trusting

God has been so vary good to me and is blessing me in so many wonderful ways. Yet as I watch still doubt that he is able to get me through the next problem.

Ps 116:77 Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee.KJV

God has been leading me to purchase a place of my own, and all the way along God has graciously reassured me over and over again that I am doing what he wanted me to, and yet it seems so big and scary that it all might fall through there are so many things that could go wrong. So last week I had put an offer in for some land and 37 acres and although the seller had agreed on a price he wanted to do an auction after the closing. Everyone I knew told me that it was not the thing to do I was going to counter his offer with pushing back the closing so he would have time to do his auction before, but I just didn't have a peace about it. The vary day I had signed the offer (I withdrew it latter) I was shown another piece only four miles from the first with 53 acres, it was all ordained of God now it looks like I will get it for less then the one I was looking at before.

God is so vary good to me and yet I doubt him so easily, with the amazing and wonderful way that God is working things out that I should have no problem resting in what he will do and just trust that He will take good care of me. I should but I don't always. You know that God is so patient and takes my trust where it is and loves me. He is always pushing me forward to trust him a just little more.