Reaching for the Moon

My deepest desire and longing is that my life would continually bring glory and honor to God, and in that I without fail glorify Him by always doing that which is right. That I would bring joy to his heart. That He would delight in all that I do! All that I say, and in everything I think! most of the time I think that I do just that until a deeper look into my own self there I see nothing that brings glory to His name. at times I think that it is just an alluring goal the same as chasing the wind or reaching for the moon.

E'phraim herds the wind,
and pursues the east wind all day long;
they multiply falsehood and violence;
they make a bargain with Assyria,
and oil is carried to Egypt.
Hos 12:1 RSV

Today I was reading Psalms 119 and verse after verse I saw something I didn't see before in that chapter over and over again the psalmists says that he delights in God's word and that he will keep it with his whole heart and then he cries out for God to his help in keeping God's commands.
Ps 119:10 With my whole heart I seek thee; let me not wander from thy commandments!
How Refreshing to remember that My God will help me. I am not completely sure why it is so difficult for me to ask for help it may be because of my manly pride “I don't need any help! I can do it myself!” whatever the reason I need to remind myself that without God's help I go nowhere and get nothing accomplished!

Father God do not let me wonder from your cammands!

At times I can get so discouraged and down. recently I seem to have more reasons then ever to be discouraged. it seems that everything that I try to do seems to blow up and collapse in my face. I planted twenty six acres of oats my neighbors got over one hundred bushels an acre. and what did I get nothing I am still looking to just cut it down for straw. my honey bees had a vary bad year. but then again there is a brighter side my garden did good i had more food then I could eat. No matter whether I do good or I lose all that I have I must remember what is really important. Whom do i have in heaven but you O God?

What am I living for? Is there anything on this earth that I desire beside God? So many times there is things that I desire beside Him. things that I want and that remove my focus from God.
Yes things here can be difficult and hard, but that is not what defines my attitude but causes me to lean and rely all the more on God. Thanks be to God that he is my strength of my heart, and even more then that He is my portion forever. God is all that I need!

Ps 73:25-2625 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. KJV