I Repent

This song from Steve Green really hit home the other day, it seems that so many times I forget to have true sorrow and repentance over my sin. Or maybe I just don't take the time in my day to listen to God and let him search my soul. I heard a story last week about an old vary godly pastor, and this women comes to him and tells him that she really enjoys being around him so much because of the saintly attitude that he has. The man looks deep into her eyes and told her in complete seriousness "If you could look into my soul you would spit in my face" I forget to take that serious look into my soul and when I do it still is frightening to see how far from God's perfection that I am. A month or two ago I heard someone talking about this and he was saying that no matter what the situation you are in "You can always repent" if you know you are in the right search your heart you can always repent of wrong attitude or the wrong motive. another thing about repentance is that it is between you and God he is the one that you have wronged he is the one that in the end you need to be forgiven by. David Cried to God after he had committed adultery then killed the womans husband that "against You and You only have I sinned" the acts of sin may be committed against others but in the end it is against God that we sin. So yes I do repent making no excuses I repent there is no one else I repent! O God my sins are ever before me. take away my sin and make me pure in your sight.

I REPENT

It's been awhile

It has been quite awhile since I last wrote. There has been so much that happened, and I have been so vary busy. God blessed me deer hunting this year I worked opening weekend so I didn't get to hunt until Sunday night. I got the two little doe Sunday night. they had been pulling my strawberry plants up this fall so I was vary glad to get rid of them, (and they taste really good)


The nice buck I got when I went up north and hunted with the Family the day before thanksgiving.

(Don't let the power get to your head!)

Last weekend I went up to Green bay to help my sister take down her garage so that we can put up a two stall one.
And I had some time to do some baking. I sure do love fresh bread(Not quite as much as my brother Josh).

Well now that you have an update. I plan to post a few more before Christmas, so stay tuned!

Trusting Him

Since I mooved down here it seems that it is hard to trust God with my finances. I think it might be because I am afraid that I would not be able to pay my bills, if I pay my tithe. God has been vary good to me and has always givin my enough, more then enough but yet I worry that I won't have enough to pay my bills. Part of it is that my job varys in how many hours I get in a month so that I am not sure on how much income I will have for the next month. Yesterday I found out that the pastor for the little church across the road from me is leaving. I am glad for him but I am sad for me, he has been a good friend and somone to talk with about the things of God. i fould out that he was leaving when another person from the church stoped in to buy some honey and told me that he was going to take over the pastorship. he also offered for me to use his tractor this winter to plow my drive and that they had just butchered a cow and could I use any meat? God is so faithful and I will trust Him with His money!

Lots of work

Amos Came over on the 8th of October and helped me to put in power to my house


Elijah and my Dad came over on 23rd of October and helped me get my well going so now I have electricity and running water!

Reaching for the Moon

My deepest desire and longing is that my life would continually bring glory and honor to God, and in that I without fail glorify Him by always doing that which is right. That I would bring joy to his heart. That He would delight in all that I do! All that I say, and in everything I think! most of the time I think that I do just that until a deeper look into my own self there I see nothing that brings glory to His name. at times I think that it is just an alluring goal the same as chasing the wind or reaching for the moon.

E'phraim herds the wind,
and pursues the east wind all day long;
they multiply falsehood and violence;
they make a bargain with Assyria,
and oil is carried to Egypt.
Hos 12:1 RSV

Today I was reading Psalms 119 and verse after verse I saw something I didn't see before in that chapter over and over again the psalmists says that he delights in God's word and that he will keep it with his whole heart and then he cries out for God to his help in keeping God's commands.
Ps 119:10 With my whole heart I seek thee; let me not wander from thy commandments!
How Refreshing to remember that My God will help me. I am not completely sure why it is so difficult for me to ask for help it may be because of my manly pride “I don't need any help! I can do it myself!” whatever the reason I need to remind myself that without God's help I go nowhere and get nothing accomplished!

Father God do not let me wonder from your cammands!

At times I can get so discouraged and down. recently I seem to have more reasons then ever to be discouraged. it seems that everything that I try to do seems to blow up and collapse in my face. I planted twenty six acres of oats my neighbors got over one hundred bushels an acre. and what did I get nothing I am still looking to just cut it down for straw. my honey bees had a vary bad year. but then again there is a brighter side my garden did good i had more food then I could eat. No matter whether I do good or I lose all that I have I must remember what is really important. Whom do i have in heaven but you O God?

What am I living for? Is there anything on this earth that I desire beside God? So many times there is things that I desire beside Him. things that I want and that remove my focus from God.
Yes things here can be difficult and hard, but that is not what defines my attitude but causes me to lean and rely all the more on God. Thanks be to God that he is my strength of my heart, and even more then that He is my portion forever. God is all that I need!

Ps 73:25-2625 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. KJV

This last month has been a mixed up month. it has been busy, yet I feel that I haven't got a lot done. I have felt tired a lot and felt like giving up many times. It seems like some things that shouldn't take a vary long takes forever. Truly God is is the strength that I have to go on.

Ps 73:26 My flesh and my heart may fail,but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.