Trusting Him

Since I mooved down here it seems that it is hard to trust God with my finances. I think it might be because I am afraid that I would not be able to pay my bills, if I pay my tithe. God has been vary good to me and has always givin my enough, more then enough but yet I worry that I won't have enough to pay my bills. Part of it is that my job varys in how many hours I get in a month so that I am not sure on how much income I will have for the next month. Yesterday I found out that the pastor for the little church across the road from me is leaving. I am glad for him but I am sad for me, he has been a good friend and somone to talk with about the things of God. i fould out that he was leaving when another person from the church stoped in to buy some honey and told me that he was going to take over the pastorship. he also offered for me to use his tractor this winter to plow my drive and that they had just butchered a cow and could I use any meat? God is so faithful and I will trust Him with His money!

Lots of work

Amos Came over on the 8th of October and helped me to put in power to my house


Elijah and my Dad came over on 23rd of October and helped me get my well going so now I have electricity and running water!

Reaching for the Moon

My deepest desire and longing is that my life would continually bring glory and honor to God, and in that I without fail glorify Him by always doing that which is right. That I would bring joy to his heart. That He would delight in all that I do! All that I say, and in everything I think! most of the time I think that I do just that until a deeper look into my own self there I see nothing that brings glory to His name. at times I think that it is just an alluring goal the same as chasing the wind or reaching for the moon.

E'phraim herds the wind,
and pursues the east wind all day long;
they multiply falsehood and violence;
they make a bargain with Assyria,
and oil is carried to Egypt.
Hos 12:1 RSV

Today I was reading Psalms 119 and verse after verse I saw something I didn't see before in that chapter over and over again the psalmists says that he delights in God's word and that he will keep it with his whole heart and then he cries out for God to his help in keeping God's commands.
Ps 119:10 With my whole heart I seek thee; let me not wander from thy commandments!
How Refreshing to remember that My God will help me. I am not completely sure why it is so difficult for me to ask for help it may be because of my manly pride “I don't need any help! I can do it myself!” whatever the reason I need to remind myself that without God's help I go nowhere and get nothing accomplished!

Father God do not let me wonder from your cammands!

At times I can get so discouraged and down. recently I seem to have more reasons then ever to be discouraged. it seems that everything that I try to do seems to blow up and collapse in my face. I planted twenty six acres of oats my neighbors got over one hundred bushels an acre. and what did I get nothing I am still looking to just cut it down for straw. my honey bees had a vary bad year. but then again there is a brighter side my garden did good i had more food then I could eat. No matter whether I do good or I lose all that I have I must remember what is really important. Whom do i have in heaven but you O God?

What am I living for? Is there anything on this earth that I desire beside God? So many times there is things that I desire beside Him. things that I want and that remove my focus from God.
Yes things here can be difficult and hard, but that is not what defines my attitude but causes me to lean and rely all the more on God. Thanks be to God that he is my strength of my heart, and even more then that He is my portion forever. God is all that I need!

Ps 73:25-2625 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. KJV

This last month has been a mixed up month. it has been busy, yet I feel that I haven't got a lot done. I have felt tired a lot and felt like giving up many times. It seems like some things that shouldn't take a vary long takes forever. Truly God is is the strength that I have to go on.

Ps 73:26 My flesh and my heart may fail,but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Ps 8:3-9
3 When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;
4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?
5 For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour.
6 Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet:
7 All sheep and oxen, yea, and the beasts of the field;
8 The fowl of the air, and the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the seas.
9 O LORD our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!KJV

God's will

God's will seems at times to be so elusive, and so hard to find. Yet really its not that hard He leads us so gently and with so vary much Patience. His purpose is planned for our lives. as long as we are listening for his voice He will guide us and not let us stray.

Ps 139:8-108 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn,if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me,your right hand will hold me fast. (from New International Version)

That is an awesome promise. I love the way it says that He will hold me fast, and with an all powerful God nothing can pull us out of that grasp.

In His Guidance I will Trust